Day 51

I went back to Maryland for the weekend, to see my family. It was a short escape, but the first I’ve had since this all began. It was freeing, and disheartening. In my imagination I pictured this vast open world of normalcy outside the city. I found the vast open, but the world wasn’t any more normal. The same masks, the same awkward greetings, the same plexiglass shields at the…
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Day 47

Forty-seven days. Gizmo and I alone, trying to fill the emptiness of these days blending into days with constructive endeavors. There’s spurts of rallied production and droughts of motivation. But at least I always make my bed, every morning, to start whatever day I’m about to have.  Forty-seven days. No human touch. The few in-person interactions I have these days are with masks, from behind my own. It’s such a…
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Day 41 – What We Couldn’t See

It was glaring. The real story of all this is how did we miss it?  The latest Trump “atrocity” in early March was lack of testing. To this day the media blames coronavirus, in totality, on Trump’s lack of tests. Our inability to quickly identify and isolate those early US infections is what caused the outbreak, so say the media. They like to highlight what Trump “could have avoided” (which…
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Day 30

It was Easter today. It took me about an hour to realize this morning, but then I stumbled into my social feeds. I called my family, wished them a happy Easter, and did the daily “what’s new” check-up. Nothing’s new. I wish something was new, even something small.  Today felt distant. I’ve forgotten the beginning, and there’s no clear end. Two weeks ago we were glued to the press conferences,…
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Day 26

On day 26 I spent my night playing with my hue lights, setting up different scenes and fiddling with different color schemes. Why? It was the most exciting thing I had to do in the middle of this ongoing quarantine.  After my last conference call, I took out the bike.  I rode down to the Brooklyn Bridge, over and back, and headed back to my apartment, There’s more movement in…
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Day 25

I awoke to the conflicting news of a new daily death record, but indications that the hospitalization and infection rates looked like they were stalling. Some are claiming we’ve already passed the peak here, I hope that’s true. I don’t really know what that means though. In the beginning of all of this, I intellectually understood some things would never be the same. But I didn’t have the time to…
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Day 23

The bike. Last year, in an effort to make room in my closet, I’d debated selling it, or even just giving it away. Instead, I bought an outdoor cover and stored in out back. Damn I’m glad I did. It’s great exercise, it allows me to go farther across the city with my camera and from a social distancing perspective, it’s better than walking. It was the first thing on…
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Day 22

Cuomo said in his briefing today that he’s estimating the peak will be in the next seven-day range. Of course, three days ago he said all the models were saying the peak would be at the end of April. Earlier in the week he was talking about the peak being in May.  Studies by CDC show 25% of coronavirus cases are asymptomatic, studies in Iceland show up to 50%.  As…
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Day 21

I skipped day 20, just because. Today was day 21, and after three full weeks of anxiety I’ve come to the conclusion that no one really knows what’s going on. Two weeks ago the CDC was shaming everyone for wearing masks, saying they were not useful in stopping the spread. Today, they gave new guidelines that we SHOULD be wearing masks when outside – but don’t take the N95’s or…
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Day 19

Day 19… When there’s nowhere else to look, you start looking within. My takeaway from 2019: when the mirror’s fractured, you see a lot of different pieces of yourself. You cringe, you hurt, you lose, you learn…and you rebuild. Greatest gift any year has given me so far.  I’m not afraid of looking within anymore, I find peace there. (The fact that I can say that after 19 days of…
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